alL'boutNessA

i'm baCk.. finAlly!!

2005-05-20T21:27:00.000+08:00

it's been a long time since i've been in here.. bo bian larr.. this yr O levels lorr.. so busy with everything.. i wan to come also cannot.. i now try to update everything.. but it's gonna take a while.. bare with me k?? i try to upload new pictures.. and well.. EVERYTHING larr.. i'm a computer idiot also.. so it's gonna be long long long... things have been rather hectic for me.. i've been trying to pull my grades up.. it's not easy OK! anyway.. my cousin is coming back from France.. when we've taken pictures.. i will upload it up here for viewing..

nessa hEre

2004-12-06T13:26:00.000+08:00

i duNno waD happEn..

2004-10-06T17:19:00.000+08:00

i've nv been more confused in my life... how am i suppose to handle a situation lyk this??? wad am i suppose to do...why does it have to turn out lyk this??? am i the one with the problem??? why does it always have to happen.. and why muz it always end this way...i cant help but think that i'm afterall a good for nothing.. even something that i wan.. i'm unable to get it... even something i cherish have to go and end this way... my life isnt worth living for..my life is worth nottin... i dun wan this to end... i hate this to end...why muz everything go bad for me??? WHY!!!

dIdnt wRite foR a lONg timE

2004-09-12T19:02:00.000+08:00

mY cOm wAs dowN foR quIte a fEw daYs... sO diDnt comE on tO wriTe...hehE.... uP tilL noW it'S stilL doWn... i'M noT usinG mY owN coM.. sO i cAnt reAllY wriTe muChiE.... thIs weEk sArting frOm tmR woulD bE prelIm... shIt loRr.. i duN thinK i'M a biT prepAred.. mAti liAo larR... haiZZZZZ.... =( tmR geO preLim.. anD i lEft mY geO teXtbK in clAss lORr... foRgoT tO briNg homE... i foUnd ouT anD i waaS lYk.. ZZZZZZZZ... shiT liaO lArr.. nO geO texTbk canNot stuDy... canNot stuDy meAns SURE FAIL!!!!!!! *sob*

rEsultS of mY sS.. anD aboUt hiM...

2004-09-04T20:31:00.000+08:00

i'Ve finaLly goTten mY minD off hIm..anD i'vE talkEd tO xionG... hE's bEen trYing tO heLp me gEt mY minD oFf iT.. anD it seEms lyK it woRkEd oUt... xiOng's alWays thEre foR mE... whEn i nEed hiM.. i hoPe it remAins thAt wAy... i'vE goTten baCk mY sociAl stuDies prelIm resuLts... guEss wAd??? i'vE paSsed!!!! fiRst tiMe i'vE pasS mY sociAl stuDies iN thE majoR exAm!!! loOks lyk mY suN iS staRting tO shinE briGhtlY!!!

whY....whY diD it beCome lyK thaT..

2004-08-31T22:03:00.000+08:00

whY do i hAve tO sEe him????? sEeing hiM onlY brinGs back memOrieS... i dUn evEr wAnt tO thinK aboUt it ANymoRe... i wAn tO foRget.. bUt cAn i???whY iZzIt sO diFficuLt...i jUz wAn tO foRget thAt iT aL hapPeneD... iS thAt toO muCh tO asK???whY iS God tOrtuRing mE???? whY??? i hAte tHe baRe thOught oF hiM... iT haD mE thiNkin thE whOle dAy thRough... anD i couLdnt evEn coNcentraTe oN doIng mY oWn stUff... evEn whEn i goIng ouT frOm schOol alSo sEe hiM... duRing cElebrAtiOn alsO sEe...wA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! iF i kEep goIng On lyK thIs... i CaN gO craZy...thE mEmoriEs oF thE paSt kEep rePeatIng iTselF ovEr anD ovEr...whEn i liSten tO sonGs... hE alSo floOd bacK intO mY mEmoRY... soMetimEs... i CaNt hElp buT stArt tO crY whEn i thInk abouT hiM...whY wAs i sO stuPid tO evEn tRust hIm...whY... whY diD iT alL happEn... i Juz wAn tO liVe eAch dAy wiThouT evEn sEeing hiM... wiThout thInkinG aboUT my pAst...hoRriblE pAst thAt i wAn tO foRgeT.. thE paSt oF beIng mAde uSed... i kEep thInkin abouT thiS... i fEel thAt i'vE leT doWn xiOng... hiaZ... nO onE cAn undErstaNd tHE paIn i'M goIn thRough noW.... i'M afrAid tO coMmit...

rEsulTs oF mY preLIm...

2004-08-30T20:18:00.000+08:00

i gOt bacK mY chIneSe preLim papEr soME timE agO.. buT i nO timE comE anD writE.. nOw.. leT mE uPdatE u oN iT.. i pAssEd mY chInese!!!! hahaX.. =P vEry happY coNsiDerinG thE faCt thAt i hArdlY paSs mY chinEse... hEhe... i'Ve goT 56 And i'M preTty muCh conTentEd...wAitIng tO geT bacK mY soCial stuDies pAper buT i kNow thIs papEr sUre goNe caSe dE... buT it'S still onE oF mY suBjeCt.. sO.. stIll eXcitEd lArr...hehE... wAn tO puT phOtos dE.. bUT... hiAn koK noT onlIne.. canNot gEt mY photOs... haiZ... iF got.. i poSt iT tO mY piCtuRes kEkE???
WanNa loOk aT mY phOtos??? chEck tHe liNk belOW...
http://allaboutnessa.blogspot.com/2004/08/photos.html

oN mY biRthdAe...

2004-08-28T20:23:00.000+08:00

mY biRthdAe wAs oN thuRs.. thE 26tH auG...AftEr sChoOl xIong FetchEd mE anD hE maDe mE foLlow Him alL thE wAy anD he wouLdnt anSwer Me oN whEre wE wEre goiNg oR wAd wE WerE goIn tO dO.. untIl wE reAched tHat i foUnd ouT... hE brOughT mE tO eAt suShimI... hehE..One oF mY faVourIte foOd... hEhE... i wAs reaLly happy loRr... coUldnt stoP smIlinG...=) eArlY thAt moRning So maNy mSg floOded mY hP.. aLl b'Dae wiShes.. fRom xiOng... mEng...mAny moRe laRr...i siGn oFf lE.. muZ hElp menG wiTh hiS acC... *muckZ*

2 more days!!! (countdown)

2004-08-24T20:45:00.000+08:00

It's 2 more days to my bithday!!! haha...FINALLY 16...i left school todae to go to the NDC(national dental centre) for my monthly thightening of my braces..i dun lyk my dentist... everytime so rough...pain sia...when i went home i found out she forgot to put 2 colour bands on the sides... so piak kua seh....blue blue blue... the suddenly no colour... -_-''' ... he this week not working anymore!!!! haha... got more time accompany me liao... =P hehe...i got nottin else to add le...ciao *nesSa siGninG ofF*

4 moRe daYs....

2004-08-22T19:30:00.000+08:00

4 more days and i'll turn 16...hehe...anw...today i receive early b'dae prezzie frm ruth...last week i gave her her present.. and this week she gave me mine..i've got a cute bear!!!!haha...she sae the bear too cheap liao.. then she sae she wanna make me a present... so she'll give me that next week...i tmr got Social Studies prelim sia.. sure mati already... i always fail SS...*sob* *sob*..how sia...on the way home today i quarrel with xiong... he made me very angry and at the same time sad...he juz now treat me lyk an outsider...unlyk last time...but...i didnt want to continue quarrelling with him.. so.. i told him to forget about the whole thing...i think he was also kinda heated up.. cause of the way he reply me..i kinda know he's also pissed at me.. haha...=P isnt that rite?? (*xiong*)...oh.. and wei sheng.. happy 16th b'dae in advance.. in case i forget!!! hehe.. *friends forever*

tO mY wonDerfuL goD-siS sAmm!!!

2004-08-19T22:38:00.000+08:00

fEw daYs agO i wAs heAring sAm'S pRob ovEr CH..thEn toDae i sAw hEr wAlkiN vEry happIly wiTh hEr p.p... i alSo fEel happY foR hEr... wiSh hEr anD hEr p.p a lOng anD loviNg relAtionshiP... duN evEr huRt uRselF agAin okiE??? iF a pErsOn luV u..hE woulD nV evEr wAnt tO huRt u... duN evEr huRt urSelF ovEr a guY.. it'S noT woRth iT... thInk abouT otHer hapPy stufF...thInk abouT hoW uR friEnds woulD fEel iF u woUld tO huRt urselF...evEn i aS uR goD-siS... i knOw i wouLd feEl vEry saD thAt i wAs noT ablE tO heLp u helP urSelf... i woUld alSo bE a fAIluRe... chEer uP kk??? i'Ll alWays bE thEre foR yeA.... *hugZ*

blEh

2004-08-17T21:23:00.000+08:00

wA... i gEttIn siCk oF studYing alReadY... i SudDenlY beCome sO guaI untIl i mySelf fEel guAi guaI dE... noW loOk at tExtboOk beComE siAn alReadY...haiZ.. noT toO long tO preLim aNd N lEvEl... thEn beCome siAn oF stuDyiNg liaO.. lyK tt hoW tO paSs siA... *sob* *sob* i dAmn scaRed siA... fiRst timE iN mY WhOle liFe i fuSsinG ovEr exAm siA... PSLE i duN evEn giVe a seConD thouGht...noW comE thIs 1.. i fuSs lyK nO tMr siA... haiZ.. PreLim staRt thIs SATURDAY!!!!!!!!!! ah!!!!!

pReliM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! argh!!!!!!!

2004-08-15T20:36:00.000+08:00

wAAA.... *sob* *soB* preLim stArtiNg thIs sAt lEi... i sCareD siA...nOt tOo loNg agO i wAs havIn sO mucH fuN reLAxin siA... noW..haIZ..BeGinnIng oF seC1 wAs juZ lyK yESterDae loRr... caN remeMbEr sO cleArly loRr..whY muZ i bE seC4 so FAST????????????? i stIll waN t0 enJoy liFEEEEE... i Dun wAn diE sOooo yOunG!!!!!~heLp~ i wAn tO diE lorr... i vEry sCareD i canNot pAss N siA....stUdy lYk shIt...arGh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! esP. mY chiNEse siA... alWays failllll....... *sob* *sob*

alExy

2004-08-13T13:56:00.000+08:00

toDae sAbriNa anD alEx wEre lYk nT talKin to 1 anOthEr lE... cauSe thEy quArrEllEd yeSterdaE (i tinK)...thEn thEy toDae boTh coMplaiN t0 mE loRr... hahaX... i MyselF duNno wAd tO do SiA... i alSo lYk bluR blUr lyK tt... duNno WaD tO saE.... saBrina wAs coPyin exActlY wAd alEx wAs doIng... hahax...thEn alEx waS lyK suPer iRrItatEd... thEn scoLd hEr loRr.. thEn shE bU fU qi... thEn sHout baCk loRr.... thEn lyK tT goT woRlD waR lll |iaO... aiYa.. theiR pRobleM vEry coMplicAted dE... alEx duN waN saBrinA tO bE niCe t0 hIm... cauSe hE find iT very annoying... thEn.... saBrina kePt beIn nicE.. hE alSo tAkbolEh tAhaN...hAiZ.. 1 siDed lUv... i thiNk saBrinA wAn t0 coNtinue liVing a life 0f Fantasy... shE dUn Wan tO adMit thE faCt thAt alEx duN lYk HEr lOR.. haiZ.. duNnoe lArr.. juZ hopE thAt shE caN comE t0 hEr senSes fasTer... i evErydae heaR aboUt thEir prob|em alSo getTin sicK of iT lE... haiZ... *praY*

F&N

2004-08-12T21:05:00.000+08:00

FinAlLy oVEr!!!! toDae goT bAck frOm teachEr tHen coRrect thE finAl corRectioNs thEn hanD up le!!! hapPy siA... duN neEd tO do ANymoRe lE... hahX...i Can slEep!!! i cAnt saE foR thoSe taKing dNt laRr.. thEy s0 poOR thinG.. actUallY evEryoNe pOor thiNg laRr.. eiTher gOt f&N oR dNt oR Art... evEryoNe stAy uP latE juz tO complEte...tO alL thoSe stIlL doiNg eitHer dNt oR arT... muZ takE caRe of hEaltH kekE... canNot oVerworK uR boDy.. muZ reSt alSo!!!*jiA you*.. tOdae O levEl MT relEase resUlt... i See sO mAny pPl cRy i mYslEf nV takE aLso cAn bE scAred aboUt thE uPComIn N...evEn moRe scAred For neXt yR O.. (if caN pasS tHis yR)..haiZ... i kNow chInese CMI liAO lArr... buT stilL woRry i thiS yR reAllY CMI aRhZ...i goTta siGn oFf do woRk liAO...adIos!

PhOtOs

2004-08-12T20:41:00.000+08:00

pIctuRes tiMe...

StaRting...
pReSentIng..thE 1 anD oNly....ME!!

tHis wAs taKen wAs i wAs arOund 3??

thIs iS mY cloSest coUz and Me tAken whEn wE weRe reAlly yoUng...

My NieCeS...

ArenT thEy cuTe???

My chIldhOod frEnd

RutH anD i stIll reMain vEry goOd frIends.. anD sO hapPens tHat toDay iS hEr b'Dae!! hAppY b'Dae ruTh!

tHis iS joE... alSo mY chilDhoOd.. he'S thE 1 iN whIte oN thE leFt.. prEetty boY hoRr...

My bLooD siSta

dO u sEe thE reSemblaNce?
My bEst fRienD...

shE'S rasYeedaH.. thE 1 oN thE riGht...

mY goOd friEnds...

doRis and mE.. takEn iN claSs oN thE 30/8/04

kaIxiN anD i.. takEn In class alsO

tHis iS anDy...1 oF thE haNdsomE onEs iN clAss.. *ahEm*

mY goOd buDdies

Left iS thE oNe anD Only mE.. riGht is doRis.. she'S reAlly fuN to hAng oUT wif.. and tHe cenTre iS eSther.. shE is tHe bUbbly 1.. and whEre's chriS? MIA i guEss...

This piCs alL takEn on the sAme dae... aftEr crOss coUntry...

ThE foUr oF uS... (goOd frEns)

tHe 4 oF uS thEn...

tHe 4 oF uS nOw!!! sEe thE diFfeRence? wE'vE all goT shoRt friNge!!!! hAha

My goD-bRos/siS...

tHis iS riCarDo... thIs yr seC4... fRom gAn enG seNg Sec scH.. hE's a caRing gUy...quIte closE tO mE De... gOt prOblEms caN taLk to hiM.. hE gT prOblEm alSo tAlK to mE.. (esP. giRls prOb) hehX *hugZ*

tHis iS melVin..hE's fRom NEw towN seC.. thIs yR sEc3... hE's vEry niCe And hE soMe moRe alWays woRry abOut mE if I nV takE caRe oF mY healTh.. oR whEn i gEt sicK dE... thaNks foR beIng thEre! *hugZ*

thIs iS hiAn kOk.. mY younGer goD-bRo... thIs piC takEn iN clAss.. hahA.. hiAn kOk... thX foR briGhtenIng mY dAy... *hugZ*

tHis iS kar menG..1 oF mY lonGest goD-bRo.. anD cloSest..thX fOR bEing thEre foR mE.. anD i'M soRry i alWays thRow mY teMper aT ya... *hugZ*

SamM... shE's mY yoUngEr goD-sIs.. shE alWayS comE tO mE foR adviCe... i'M alwAys wiLlinG tO helP ya kEke?? i luV u.. *muackZ*

My boYfrIend.. anD i

alOt oF pPl lYk thIS thE mOst...

mY boYfriEnd lUv thIs thE moSt cauSe hE nV lyK hiMself smiLing...

anD aS foR mY perSonal favOuritE... i Luv thIs 1...

thIs 1 boTh of uS wAS takEn bY surpriSed... i wAs bitiNg mY haiR banD anD hE waS loOkin aT thE butTons.. anD thEn We heArd couNtdowN.. bY thEn toO laTe liAo...hAhaX

End oF piCtuRes

stUpiD edUcatiOn syStem..

2004-08-11T23:19:00.000+08:00

maKe mE stuDy lyK shiT... evErytiMe stuDy finISH heAdachE...why thE syStem maKe uS untiL stRessFul de... tEacheRs soMe moRe canNot unDersTand whY wE alL toWards The lAst fEw periOds oF thE daY cannOt coNcentRate.. whEn wE sAe wE tiRed.. thEY sAe wE goT noThing tO comPlAin 'bOut.. buT thEy ONLY teaCh a mAx oF 4 hRs of lEsSons pEr dAe.. oF couRse wE moRe tiRed thAn thEM waD... wE alSO hAvE tO stAy uP laTE juZ t0 coMpletE thEir homEwoRk thAt thEy AsSignEd to uS..thEn whEn wE duN haF enUf slEep.. gO scH gEt scoLDing... whY teAchErs canNot unDerStand??? puSh us unTIl alL wan tO diE liAo lArr...arGh!!!

hAiz.......

2004-08-10T20:35:00.000+08:00

i MiSs mY deAr sO0000ooo muChiE...*sob* *soB* ( t0 sAmaNthA mEi mEi... weLcomE t0 tHe cluB...bOth the saMe stAte) lAst tiMe miSs hiM caN juZ calL hiM noW iN thE evEning tIll latE niGht canNot calL hiM lE... hE noW workIn!!!! soBbY... soMe moRe iS evEniNg shiFt!!! SObBB....haiZ... noW reAlLy miSs hiM vEry badLy buT hE workIn sIa.. duNnoe waD t0 do....i wAn tO cRy liAo lArr.....*i wiSh hE duN woRk anYmore buT that wouLd bE a bIt toO selfisH wouLdn't iT?* haiZ...

t0...deAriE

2004-08-09T23:15:00.000+08:00

coNtinueD (frm PrevioUs entReee)... deArie.. dUn neEd woRry s0 muAch 'bouT mE.. noTtIn wiLl happen dE... pRobAbly juZ atE somEthinG wronG niA... voMiting is nO biGgiE kEke? takE goOd caRe oF urSelf... i caN takE caRe oF mySelf lArr..

sAtuRdaY... (7/8/04)

2004-08-09T23:06:00.000+08:00

wEnt oUt wiTh a Few friEnds tO celEbrAte b'Dae...kiNda fuN foR me thouGh.. we Were havIn luNchIe aT souL garDen...(xAnder.. if u'Re reAding thIs...juZ wanNa sAe again tHat u haVe a BIGGGG apPetiTe.. reAlLy biGGGg) hahaX.. thEn went foR boWliNg.. FinalLy sAw mY 'Long losT god-Bro siA' haha.. noT that lonG larr.. 'boUt 3 yRs? anW...hE gaVe mE a mE t0 u tEddY foR b'Dae!!! hahaX... aftEr tt hE treAt alL oF uS go plAy pOol loRr... thEn wE gO arCade.. niTez tiMe wE pRoceEded to sweNsen anD i treaT thE reSt to... iCe Cream!!!! hahaX.. noTtin mucHH lArr.. juZ a tYpicAl ouTing toGethEr loRr... cyA...

pReTty bOrinG daE

2004-08-03T21:02:00.000+08:00

SiCk aLl tHe Way....